More than Just a wife and Mother.
I have always struggled with my body image. Ever since I was young, I always viewed myself as the “chubby” girl who acted silly to try and make people laugh, so they wouldn’t see that I was broken on the inside. Six years ago, I met my best friend, who is now my husband. He has always seen me as the most beautiful woman on Earth, but I never believed him. Always said he was delusional! After having my 3rd child, I finally got down to the weight I was during my freshman year of high school. I should’ve felt gorgeous and confident, but I have never felt worse. No matter what I did (got my hair cut, bought a new outfit, etc) I still felt like the lonely chubby girl.
I saw some boudoir photos on Facebook and starting doing some research. The women in the images looked exactly how I wanted to feel: confident and beautiful! About six months went by and I kept pushing it to the back of my head that it was too expensive and I wasn’t pretty enough. I would never look like they did in a million years!
My head space got to an all-time low. I would cringe when my husband touched my stomach. We weren’t intimate for months. It wasn’t good. I just happened to see some boudoir pictures on Facebook and thought to myself, I have to do this for ME! I started more research and reached out to multiple photographers. I instantly had a connection with Amanda. It was just like talking to a friend. Not only was her photography STUNNING, but she was so relatable and understanding.
“Yes, I have an extra 15 pounds of wine, ice cream and cheesecake. But now I know that those things aren’t flaws. They are just part of the gorgeous, badass woman I am!”
On the way to my session, I told myself I was not going to be nervous. I was determined for self-fulfilling prophecy to help me out and bring out some courage and confidence. First of all, Kassidy [in house service provider] made my hair and makeup the most beautiful it’s probably ever been. Then the main event… I felt AMAZING!!! Amanda made me feel relaxed and comfortable. After I saw one of my images on the camera, I was in shock. How could that babe in the camera actually be me?! The rest of the session was so much fun. And as for choosing my favorite images? Good luck! I love them all!
After my session with Amanda, I have a completely different view and respect for my body. Yes, I have stretch marks from carrying my beautiful children. Yes, I have an extra 15 pounds of wine, ice cream and cheesecake. But now I know that those things aren’t flaws. They are just part of the gorgeous, badass woman I am!